Really Emotional Post--- sorry!

These last couple of weeks have been a learning experience for me. I have read so many good things. I am loving the reading of good stuff. The way I look at things now are so different. I love it. I have had a few questions I've always wondered about answered for me.




The last 2 weeks I have really struggled a lot. Some of you know I was dating this really awesome guy, for a little over 2 months(we've known each other for forever). And when he had bad days, I had bad days. That's just the way we were. Anyways, so he went home to visit his family and when he came back, just totally ignored me, wanted nothing to do with me. I knew something was up. I tried being patient. For 2 whole weeks, I put up with it. I came home from work and when I'd go to bed, I read my scriptures, then pray. There were a couple of nights where as soon as I started praying I started sobbing. It was so hard, because I honestly was getting the same answer that my "man toy." We just weren't meant to be! But I didn't want to end it at all. He is such an awesome guy! And I didn't want to accept Gods answer, but I knew in my heart what was suppose to be. Anyways, so I struggled with that and the fact that he was totally ignoring me. Because he didn't want to hurt me, but he was hurting me more by waiting to talk to me.
But once we got it all out in the open and talked about everything, it ended really good. I mean, I'm always going to like him, I'm sure I will always have a little crush on him. But I honestly have nothing bad to say about him. I have prayed my heart out that if we ended that it would go smoothly and there wouldn't be bitterness. My prayer was answered. I really think we will stay good friends and support each other in different things in each others lives. He really is a good person and I honestly respect him and I hope for the best in his life.
My only regret is we never got a picture of the two of us! :( Darn it! He really is a good lookin' guy!
Anyways, so everything I have gone through for the last 2 weeks, I just have to thank my Father in Heaven for all his support and love. I'm on His time-line, whatever He has planned for me, will happen when He knows I am ready. I honestly have to say God is becoming one of my best friends!
Oh, then I have to say thank you to all of my wonderful friends(you know who you are) for putting up with me the last few weeks. And my mom, holy cow, she should never have been through what I've put her through, she didn't deserve it! Hopefully the next guy I date will be even more amazing than this last one, which will be pretty hard to top! :)